Stay Black

As a young American Negro I sometimes find it hard not to detest my nation of birth.  I understand that my country does not always see me as a full citizen such truths have come to light for us all to witness due to the presidency of Barrack Obama. When things like "He is a muslim" would be said it was actually code words that means "He doesn't like white people." When the American thinks black muslim they  think Louis Farrakhan, the American thinks of Malcolm X. 

America feels threatened by African American males in part due to what they know is a 'justice' that deserves to be paid out to it. In the collective minds of Americans they are well aware that the sins of this nation has yet to be atoned for. What I mean is this, collective white guilt is a very real thing and the United States has a guilty conscious. The United States figures that surly its former slaves and current lower class must hate America. Why if America where in the Negroes shoes it would plot revolution and hold executions for everybody. 

This leads me to admit that I have a deep mistrust for Americans. I am sure that Glen Beck would love to get a hold of this. Yet if we do not admit that America has a mistrust of Negroes what good is it for me to admit such prejudice? Is the Negro the only one capable of holding a grudge? It is racist to think that just because America no longer holds slaves that America no longer is angry or violent towards Negroes. Why, America was upset with Negroes just for being freed slaves. There is no hiding the fact that since the Negro has arrived in the western world the western world has been hostile to the Negro. 

And yet at the same time I wish to move on and move forward. I do not wish the same ignorant pitfall of prejudice to befall the Negro as it has befallen the Americans. Take note that I do not say white, but i freely say Black, or Negro. That is because that when one says "American" one thinks of a white. No doubt, free white and twenty one, is the hallmark of being American. Being free, being white, and being old enough to drink and vote. That is what being an American is all about. I do not conclude that I am less American or that blacks are not American. No, I am indeed the new American negro. keenly aware that I am American and yet also more aware that I am still black as ever, and my country will never let me forget that.